Rediscovering Your Calling: When You Feel Lost in the Wilderness

When purpose feels distant and the wilderness seems endless, God is still calling you back.

Rediscovering Your Calling: When You Feel Lost in the Wilderness

Beloved, I’ve been lost more times than I care to admit. The kind of lost where the weight of everything presses in, where my why feels distant, and my purpose seems tangled in the mess of life. I have asked God why more times than I can count—why this pain, why this path, why this silence. And yet, even in the wilderness, He never stops calling me back.

Surrender has never come easy for me. It has always been an act of sheer will—submitting my stubborn, weary heart to the all-seeing, all-knowing Maker of heaven and earth. But when you live with debilitating anxiety, crippling depression, and tie it all in a nice bow of CPTSD, the words just trust Jesus can feel impossible. Sometimes, letting go isn’t just a decision; it’s a battle. The what-ifs circle like vultures, fear hovers over every waking moment, and the mind and body hold onto memories as if they are still happening.

This is where I come to you today—not with a perfectly packaged answer, but with fresh wounds that still sting, scars that still bleed when pressed. Some days, I pick at them. Some days, I feel them reminding me of other scars I have yet to fully heal from. And yet, through it all, God is here. Teaching me, stretching me, calling me deeper.

When Purpose Feels Distant

Moses fled Egypt in shame, thinking he had ruined everything. Yet God met him in the wilderness, not with condemnation, but with a burning bush and a renewed calling. You are still the one I have chosen to lead my people.

Elijah, fresh from a victory over the prophets of Baal, found himself running in fear. He hid in a cave, overwhelmed and exhausted, convinced he was utterly alone. Yet God wasn’t finished with him. He didn’t rebuke Elijah’s exhaustion—He met him with a whisper, a reminder of purpose, and the strength to go on.

Esther didn’t ask for the role she was given. Fear and uncertainty gripped her heart as she faced the choice to step into her calling or shrink back in self-preservation. Yet the words of Mordecai echoed: Perhaps you were made for such a time as this.

Beloved, if you are in the wilderness, if you feel too broken, too tired, too far gone—let me remind you: God is not done with you yet.

Renewing Your Mind When It Feels Impossible

Romans 12:2 calls us to be transformed by the renewing of our minds. But what does that mean when your mind itself feels like the battleground? I have learned that it is more than just thoughts—it is an active, daily choice. To see the limitations of my mind and still proclaim the mind of Christ. To grab hold of His promises, even when I don’t see them yet.

Because of faith.
Because He wills it to be so.
Because it is already done.

His Word is infinite, unshaken, eternal.

So today, in the wilderness, I will worship.
When I don’t have the answers, I will worship.
When I feel lost, I will worship.
Because the stars were made to worship, so will I.

🌿 Have you ever felt lost in your calling, only for God to redirect you? Share in the comments—I’d love to hear your story.

With love and grace,
Beth 🌻🧶